By Tabitha Pankey
Entry 1: May 25, 2020
So it's another Memorial Day we are spending on my FIL couch and another year of my feeling hopeless. On this day I decide to take my life back and defeat every demon that is assigned to my family and me. I grew up in church, and I know the power of prayer and what I'm supposed to say so why did it take this long for me to realize?
One thing both of my spiritual coverings taught me was how evil, conniving, and strategic the enemy is. He knows us better than we know ourselves at times.
Hold up, sis. Now what now?
Alright let me explain before I lose you. The enemy has made it his mission to defeat us. He doesn't want to be in hell alone so he spent years learning how to destroy us. Years meaning down your bloodline. He thrives in generational curses and has been successful, even in my own life. For years I felt empty and didn't know why. I grew up in church, and followed the bible. But what I didn't do was arm myself with the weapons necessary to fight a demon I didn't know existed, depression.
At the time of this blog entry, I believed that the life I was living was meant for me. But soon after "taking" my life back (or giving it back to the creator), God revealed something extremely awesome to me. So I want to ask you, what are you answering to?
Many people have called me many names, but it was always up to me what I answered to.
Jeremiah 29:11: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
A God who wants you to prosper wouldn't call you "depressed" or "mediocre" or anything negative.
He WOULD call you "healed". 1 Peter 5:7
He WOULD call you "beautiful". Psalm 139: 14
So before you believe the negative words spoken over your life. Ask yourself, what does God call me? He created you in HIS IMAGE, so of course He is eager to tell you why.
John 10:10: "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
Choose life today sis! I'm rooting for you!